still the problem remains. now, stronger more than ever. i have to stay strong through all these problems.
i have a family, down stairs, needing me to keep all of them together. to not let the roof of this house get blown up. they need me to be happy and secure. they rely on me, but now, i wish they could rely on themselves more then ever and give me space. i just want some space right now, not from friends, but from my family. all the people that i cant show emotion too, i want space. i have to bite my lip(or my lipring) and suck it up, wipe the tears, go put on a smile and show everybody how "happy" i am. today blows. hopefully tonight will get better, through the help of one little tiny friend right next to me.

i dnt want to hear any of you people say "well then just go run off to her" cause that would just be uncallled for and wrong... dont say that

i loved you,
William James Beaumont