randomness

im going to shove alot of stuff into this about different things and people.
you cant treat me like this. sorry i didnt do it. i really wanted to go tonight, i even looked up on a map where it is. it was nice seeing you tonight. to see you so sad and insecure it seemed really sucks and i dont like it. i was so nervous to drive up to the place... you dont even know! and yes you do care. is this how you always are when your in this mood? i think its cool how all 3 of us have jammed our fingers onto our keyboards tonight showing our emotions on this crappy little website that we all consider home. i think its funny that she wants to meet me when she has a boyfriend. i think i underestimated my feelings. i think she did too. she wants to read my writings.... is that weird? some of me wants it to happen so bad, i want to just ask and let what ever happens happen but at the same time i dont because i think i might be making a wrong move. you called me out but you stayed in side. the one you love you shot me down. how could you? does anyone know what song that is? for some reason those lines have meant so much to me and its so true how that works. is this girl expecting to be just a piece of ass because up to now, thats all shes shown me and thats really not what i want anymore. i want to be with you right now. i want todrive to your house and park where its really hard to park just because i know im close to you. i feel so bad for getting your hopes up. i had to be honest with myself though. just dont plan on me doing it ok? and for the reasons i gave you. i really want to see dear john. i think im going to miss her on friday when she is off with her friend doing things that i cant see but i have to trust her and hope she is thinking about me. will she be with me at lunch? i hope she will be texting me like always. does this mean that what we had is no longer? did i mess up again? i have horrible luck with girls.... terrible. eaither its me or its them. why cant i find one that is equal from both sides. i thought i had but after tonight its not looking to be so. after tonight you can talk to him, i HONESTLY dont care anymore. go be with him honestly. HONESTLY go be with him... wait, honestly? yes honestly.. wait will honestly? ... come on. wait honestly like HONESTLY? YES HONESTLY!!!!! AHHHH yes honestly. i think i want her. but i dont know what to do... story of my life. i think im going to end it here.

PS: im am going to be like her and steal things from you. i am offically stealing the "what kind of bees make milk?" joke k? hope you dont mind