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hipocrite?

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hipocrite?

love you

well, i love you. i am no t in love with you, but i love you like no tomorrow, alhtough i will see you tomorrow. im getting dressed now which im sure you can imagine with your imagination. so, goodbye. i l0ve you. sweet dreams and ill see you soon

hope

i hope so

hope

i hope so

i cant believe what has happened

i cant believe what has happened. your not the same girl i grew a friendship with. maybe its that i know you better but if so, than i wish i never got to know you. i loved who you were, not who you are. i hate the complaining, the saddness of life. how you think your life is so horrible, its not much different than EVERY other highschool girl and guy. i dont want to make you seem insignificant, but its really the same that we all will go through. i do not like where things have taken us. i feel that although we continue to spend the same ammount of time together, we are growing appart becase of the attitudes expressed in this friendship. your plenty good for me with or without the things you do for me. stop asking me for things, stop "wishing" i did things. ya know the reason i act like i ddont care is for you to get over me. i still hate thaty ou have feelings for me. i want to be the biggest dick in the world if it will suppress your feelings. i love you chloe, i love who you WERE, not who you are now.
good night

i hate that.....

i hate that i think you have misunderstood me. i want to be able to see you, to be with you. there is only one way for that too happen. well 2, but one of those is out of the question. the other way is means of phones and the use of the technology we have been given in todays age. i do not wish to receive them for personal pleasure, nor do i think they should be the type to invoke pleasure. what i wish is too see your smiling face as much as possible. just when ever you think of me, throw me one, its cute and it means the world too me. i often find myself looking at your profile on myspace and just going over your pictures over and over again just so i can "see" you. well those pictures get old. i understand you dont like doing this act, and if that is true then i have nothing left too say and i simply will disreguard any conversation that previously talked about this. just let me know, and not jsut a "i look bad" because, the time a girl is most "pure" is when she is not prepared to look good.

let it be

although this is the name of a very famous song, these 3 words can mean much more than fame and popularity. it is a phrase of patience, maturity,expectance, age, toughness. it can sooth children, teenagers and adults alike. let problems go. let it be, they will pass.

LET IT BE

remember

you are the one person i know that i want. your presence never fails to be in my thoughts. we are best friends although our friendship is one of the weirdest i have ever had. you and i both know that i should have picked you and not the other girl. it would have been perfect. you have grown up so much since our last meeting and everyday i get more envious of all the guys that get to see you because that is the one thing id want to do. i just wish i could be with you. no one knows of these feelings because, they are dormant, suppressed by reality, invisible, yet they are untarnished from time. my guess is that they will continue to be like this for a long long time. we always talk about seeing eachother once more and i always get the butterflies, but in the end, it never ceases to dissapoint. man the saying. "you always want what you can not have." has never been more true to me. i wish i could see you more. when ever i ask "who do you have feelings for?" you always respons "....... and you of course." is that true or is it just the feeling of dissapoint you wish not to feel? we have been friends for so long yet, i know very little about you. i think that if we meet some how, we will fall into the deeps of love once more as we have done on previous encounters. or, on a negative note, we could be completly awkward and not gain any feelings what so ever. i cant believe i cried, legitly cried after watching you leave on that bus. there was something that left with you that i long for ever so much.
i hate myself so much for having these feelings because they arent going anywhere until we see eachother. i hate it, but i love you. these past 4 months i havent said "i love you" to anyone and meant it more than friends, but if iwere to say the closest contestant to actually having me mean it in a relationship way would be you. you have never failed to be there for me, to talk to me, to entertain me and i never want to fail you.
please, lets see eachother soon

p.s. to my best friend reading this; dont ask who this is about. im sure you know but do not ask me

come home

Hello worldHope you're listeningForgive me if I’m youngFor speaking out of turnThere’s someone I’ve been missingI think that they could beThe better half of meThey’re in the wrong place trying to make it rightBut I’m tired of justifyingSo i say you’ll..Come homeCome homeCause I’ve been waiting for youFor so longFor so longAnd right now there's a war between the vanitiesBut all i see is you and meThe fight for you is all I’ve ever knownSo come homeOh.. I get lost in the beautyOf everything i seeThe world ain’t as half as badAs they paint it to beIf all the sonsIf all the daughtersStopped to take it inWell hopefully the hate subsides and the love can beginIt might start now..YeahhWell maybe I’m just dreaming out loudUntil then[Chorus]Come homeCome homeCause I’ve been waiting for youFor so longFor so longAnd right now there's a war between the vanitiesBut all i see is you and meThe fight for you is all I’ve ever knownEver knownSo come homeOh[Interlude]Everything i can’t beIs everything you should beAnd that’s why i need you hereEverything i can’t beIs everything you should beAnd that’s why i need you hereSo hear this now.

many might think this is about them, but if they were to actually know who its about they would be amazed. you have left an imprint in my heart in the VERY little time i have spent with you. i dont know why but i find myself thinking about you more than necessary. i hate it. but in your words, "its fate." so, thank you. you have been a good person too me. thank you.
love,
WJB

to chloe

i cant believe you took me seriously. i was being serious but not to the extent that you pictured. i was not effected because of nick. i thought it was RIDICLOUS that you were mad that i went home "sick" and then to nicks house and you called and i couldnt talk. im sorry but that was just ridiclous.

done?

we are so done. we wont go anywhere i dont believe. i dont know what position i hold in your mind but you dont hold the spot you previously did. ive been minipulated by my own desires to fall into that hole. ive always reminded myself of that song "go on girl" by neyo. its true, im too fly to be depressed. that might be just to boost my own destroyed self-esteem. ya know chloe, i am not going to try to get her, but if she wants me, she can do the work for it now. but i will not just be another toy to her. i hope you know

super hero wha?

first, i want you to know that i am not trying for her anymore, i am meerely (spelled that wrong) being a friend. as i would do for you, or zech, or nick or anyone, she asked me to run so i gladly said yes. it ruined my day but who cares ya know? i need you to stop trying to make me be attracted to you, its killing me in the process. i can see it, every day, the things you do to impress me more the the others. i dont like it because i know it will only hurt you. like you said, we were meant to be friends. you were meant to love me and keep us happy while im meant to love you and protect you from heartbreak and bad moods. (although i can not protect you from i creat myself) i want you to be the happy girl i knew and THAT girl i fell inlove with legitly (i used that word cause idk how to spell the full word). i love you chloe but as a friend, and just like that super hero loves the girl super hero in that movie with will smith that i continue to forget his name... we can not depart for long before being dragged back toeachother like magnets. i love you chloe but i can not continue this homocide