a dump.
i wish it would just dump on me at once. lately, alot of negative things have happened. ALOT of things. no, i take that back, not a large number of them, just things that have impacted me greatly and things that are important to me. i wish that everything for the next few months, all the negative things would hit me in one day. i can store it away alot better that way than having it happen over time. its hard to store all this stuff inside and i have never learned how to let it out. i dont know if i will ever leanrn to let it go, but hopefully one day, i will peacefully let all this shit out. again, i just wish everything could hit me right now. if your thinking about leaving me, leave me now. please just do it, (yes im talking about you). i feel like im just lying on the cutting board. i would much rather have one big potentially life ending cut than a shit load of little ones over a long period of time that never heals. blah. life blows, right as it was getting better, life blows.
question.... why dont i resort to cutting, or physical abuse to over ride the mental strain?
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment