flip flopped

everything is different now. my perception on you, my levels of affection and remorse. its like the whole world just got flipped right up side down and id like to take a minute just sit right there to tell you how i became.... ill stop there. i hope this isnt true. im so scared, i cried after we got off the phone. i balled. im worried it seems for my life. i love you, you know that. i dont want this and of course neighter do you. =[ what are we going to do.