lied too

i wish i didnt find it when i did. maybe, if i were to have found it now there would have been more juice to it. that you would have never stopped your unloyalty. i wish i didnt find it because now, even if you still have those thoughts you dont write them down. atleast not on that same blog that you made. i didnt want you to stop writing on that blog. i wanted you to continue writing like you were. what a dumb thought. of course youwouldnt write down those secrets... because you knew id check it and read them. i feel bad now because i guess. some how i feel lied too.