one mountain i can not master

its a wasted effort. a hurtfull one. a poisonous one. a destructive one. trying to change something about me that is implemented that deep is impossible. i can not change that. thats like asking you to not be annoyed of so much stuff. my mom always said that im going to a hard husband to have, just because i dont show my emotion. you have to read me. my little signs, my change in tone, in voice volume, my movements. its part of who i am. i am truely sorry i cant be different. i just dont know how to show my anger directly when i feel it. thats one potential flaw i have. i hope you understand when you read this that as much as id like to be perfect for you, there are things like this that i just can not over come.