enjoyment

well last night sucked. for me atleast. i hope you managed to find some enjoyment from it. but im glad you said what you said. im glad you want me out of your life. not because thats what i want, but it was a decision finally. i told you alot last night that i love you. that i love you and love you and love you. i still do. i said that i didnt like the way you treated me and you said it was my fault. that may very well be my fault. but things like that have happened with other people and they dont react that way. im sorry. that i mess up, or that i dont get punished like you do. i know how much you hate it. but i cant help that. im also sorry that your father and mother get angry over things that... really have nothing to do with you. i wish we were different and more suitable for eachother. i wish that we knew how to be exactly what eachother wanted. i wish.... i wish we could go back 10 months ago.. back to when my life was perfect.but we cant. but if you really want me out of your life, i understand believe me, i do. but i just need you to tell me. dont make me guess please. but what you did last night was just mean. i hate when you cus at me (you know this) and you say "fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you get the fuck out of my life." thats just mean. and uncalled for. i want to be happy with you. thats the key thing. happy. im affraid our plans of being together after highschool wont work. and for other reasons than us not being together. if that makes sense. but i love you. again, i hope you found some enjoyment out of last night. sweet dreams