war

every day, im bombarded with discouragement to do, what i really want to do. from my friends to my mother all the way down to propaganda. after watching the hurtlocker, the following day, my mother asked me, "william, what if you die? what am i going to do? how could i move on?" i always hated the line "to die for my country is the greatest honor." but its so true. i would love to die if it means the freedom of my loved ones. i would be proud to say i am in the military but i just wish, everyone around me would be as proud. ive never done anything that i know would make my mother upset, but this, this one thing is something thati will do no matter who opposes me, whether that be chloe, or zech, nick or my own mom. i am doing this reguardless. i dont know why i want it so bad, but i really do, almost more than anything. to wear the uniform, to be in that family, to have that responsibility, to be the leader, to be the man, ive never been able to know. possibly those, but i doubt that really is the sole reason.