romance

tonight, we saw Last Song.
it impacted me more than expected, and in ways which were more than likely, unintended.
not only did it give me an insight into what i am looking for in myself but also in someone else. it also showed me all the ridiclous impossible things that go on with movies. ill start with that
-one minute his shirt is sweaty, next scene, still standing in the same place, its not sweaty anymore.
-a piano, sitting with other instruments, happens to be PERFECTLY tuned for that song...
- the boy just happens to have a connection with her father. he also just happens to be the one that works at the aquarium, he just also thinks "im going to go stand 300 feet infront of her house so that hopefully she sees me... that doesnt happen.
- the boy just knows exactly what to say to her, to her brother, to her father.... thats just never going to happen.

now, reguarding the other thing.
i hate saying this because my mother always told me to never read love stories or marry a woman who reads love stories all the time. the reason she told me, was that the men in those stories are PERFECT. tall, strong, caring, athletic, a MAN, just PERFECT and that if a woman reads too many of those books, she will grow an idea that men are like that or that all she wants in this man in a book and that no other man can surpass a man made from words. she never mentioned it, but it can also go that way with men. its funny sometimes. i will watch a love story with a perfect girl. absolutly perfect. cute, caring, knows how to treat a guy, knows how to still be the loving girl. after i watch the movies, i will think "i want a girl like that. why cant i have that."
i notice these thoughts going through my mind of what i want my woman to be like. but THATS NOT REAL.

i know what i want my future woman to be like. i say my "future woman" because i know, that you and i will not be together. i would be lying if i told myself that. so for now, i am happy with you, i am more than happy with you. but i know what i want my future wife to be like. whether i am basing her off a movie or not, thats what i am looking for. or, will be looking for sometime in the vast future.