ignored by one, being ignored from the other.

ignoring one, being ignored from the other. it kills me everytime i think about this one who hasnt given a damn about me to call me. people might complain about 9 months without you, but ive gone 6 years. almost 7. it will be 7 this october. it kills me everytime you come by, dont bother comming to my room, or asking to talk, leaving anote, calling me even. why does it seem like the one person that everyone needs in their life leaves me, twice. and its not like they leave and keep in contact, they just go... poof one day they are gone. thats honestly how both of them have been. ='(.no one knows how much stress this puts on me, being the man of the house. not having a man to lean on. i feel like i need help all the time but cant ask anyone. and people think its okay to add stress to my life. like i need anymore. if you add stress, leave my life please. please just go. if you think you can help, stay. i just dont know what to do sometimes.i just dont want responsibility. i dont want commitment. i dont want to worry whatpeople think, or what one person thinks. i want to do what i want.