dispicable

what is happening to me... to us?! are we moving on? wanting to move on? needing to? who knows right now. but all i know is that im worried because its becomming ever so common that we arent talking every day. that we can go a day without talking to one another and it almost feels fine. thats now how i want this to be.

i do have one thing thats been pressing my mind recently. all those mean things you say about me (when your mad) about how shitty i am and so forth. do you actually feel that way? i know i NEVER say anything like that to you when im mad unless i truely feel it when im mad and when im not. it just seems, immature for you to be doing that so id like you to stop. cause it hurts me more than you know.

well, i hope you had a good date tonight (sincerely) if that is what you went on. i cant say i dont care because i do, i just have a very strong feeling that you wont go full force with him. lol just a gut feeling. and a cocky feeling too. but ehh. so sorry for not writing back. i fell asleep and then got awaken to some yelling. its just, you want to work on US, but you care about me and other people too. its just sometimes odd when i look at it. now i am in no way comparing you to shaleena or anyone else for that matter, but none of the other girls ask who i hung out with, what i did with them, and if i do happen to tell them, they dont pitch a fit. i understand that you care, because i feel the same about you. but we relinquished the rights to be able to have a say in the other persons outside life a while ago.

i love you,
goodnight