always

now, YOU. i miss you, i want to relive our past because i feel we have lost it. theres just no way to fix things. i want you but i refuse to have you. it kills me everytime she looks at me when i drive and i can see her out of the corrner of my eye and i just wish it was you right next to me. or when we were laying on the sand and i wish it was you and i, escaping from the wind by barracading (spelt shit wrong!!!) ourselfs in the blanket. i just wish you were them. allways. but i cant do it. i cant go back to that. when im with you, and when i sit down and hear a love song, all i want is you but when i come back to reality i know its just bad for me. maybe this is your time to go play on the jungle gym instead of sitting in the class room waiting to be picked up. make the most of your time. wait out on the play ground. i confess you are the best thing in my life. i think im going to go, for a long time. i think thats whats best for both of us. i want to stop hurting you. it will only hurt for a little while. then after that, you wont feel a thing. ready?
i love you bubba,
for ever and ever,
my bubba.
love,
always your bubba.