imagine

imagine this,
if you ended all the friendships that you felt you put more effort into than they do, or you feel yourself not caring when they put alot of effort into it. just end it. how many would you lose? would you lose any at all? would you lose all of them?

doesnt that make you feel that you should try harder? or if your like me, that souds like a good idea because you can get rid of all the people that bug you when they try to continously talk to you. i dont think that ending all those friendships would be such a bad idea.
why is that?
some of my "friends" try so hard, harder than i would ever try, just to keep in contact with me and to make me want them like they want me, but i dont care. for what ever reason they do not matter to me. not because i dont want them as a friend, but there is just something about them that makes me not intrested in their friendship.
its friendships like these that make me feel ridiclous for trying at all for others. if i put some of my friends what they put me through, would they try? some i can think off of the top of my head would split in a heart beat, while others would stick it out just like i have.


do i make it that easy to just walk right out of my life?