to lauren

lauren,
we have been so close in this past month, so personal and intimate. we have expressed feelings for eachother that we havent shown many people. i cant keep this going on. i need to let you know how i truely feel. about a week ago i said i have good news and bad news. i asked which one you wanted to hear first, you said good. so i told you the news then i asked if you wanted to hear the bad news. you asked if it would hurt you and i said yes, so you said dont tell me. i agreed and carried on with the conversation. well its time that the bad news iw as going to tell you is revealed. well, i dont have any feelings for you anymore. everytime i hold your hand, or kiss you it is even more apparent then the previous. its so hard to tell this to you because i know your mom loves me and likewise for rick... i think. it kills me to let you down like this.
you might be thinking "well what now?" well i think we should continue seeing eachother like we do. just no more kissing and what not. i TRUELY hope this doesnt ruin things for us. i really love your company and your friends. i still want late night movies, "naps", magic music repeaters, and laughs.
love,
william