BULL FUCKIN SHIT! look, im not going to be put second. or third. or let some new gu... well old guy that has poped up again take you away. if you want him, as you wrote, take him. you think im an emotional person.. which i am... but ive got a wall up now. you wont hurt me. i will not let you hurt me. at all. see its like this. i call it the paraschute effect. see this is how i work. if you consider a picture of a paraschuter, im the person, my heart is the paraschute, and girls are the strings attaching the two. there is a reason there are so many strings. so if one breaks your not screwed, you have others to hold you up, if 3 break you still have many more to save you. i will not let you be my only tie to my heart. i want you to be but i dont trust you with that. i WANT you to prove me wrong. chloe thought what i said was harsh and i told her " i only said it because i want her to prove me wrong, i want her to show me that we can work." you apparently arent ANYWHERE near being over jake so, ill let you go to him. i dont know what to do with you. i dont know if i should leave you and let you have your play time with jake until you want to get serious. i also have another analogy with myself and girls. see girls dont often know what they want. so i picture myself like a bunch of land that is up for sale... you can buy me now but if you dont think your ready, you dont have much time before someone else buys me. and you wont see it comming, just when you go to buy me, ill have a SOLD sign on me. i WANT you to buy me and take me away with you. but i dont think your ready..... at all. that might seem like a slap in the face but its true. you have too many engagements with other guys. i couldnt trust you to not have feelings for them when we go out. i couldnt. i need to. like you said.. you want me to just stop. so i will, if you want otherwise, let me know. but baby girl, i wont be here for long. take what you can while its there.
write back in another blog will ya? =]
thanks baby girl
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